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"Where I'm at is where I want to leave." [23 Apr 2006|01:59am] [ mood | uncomfortable ] [ music | "Life Support Addiction"-Refused ] The air is the same everywhere. Or so we're lead to believe. But who's to say that the minute you step off the plane, the minute you get out of your car after a long trip...that the air you're breathing isn't filling your lungs with more than just Oxygen? Air, like anything else, gets stale. And if you stand in one place long enough, so does your life. Anything that filled you with feeling before can suffer the sudden and obvious downfall. City skylines that used to be larger than life become just a thousand lit portholes that melt into the horizon. New England shoreline becomes a sandbar holding back the Atlantic, nothing more, nothing less. Moving on is something that some people need. Many are content with staying put, with the security and comfort it offers. But others (and as of late I'm finding myself in this camp) need to see something further than state borders, need to look at different faces than the usual deck, need to breathe air that can once again fill them with more than just Oxygen. I need something new. And this summer I'll hopefully find it. That's not to say I don't love it here, I do. It's just lost it's shine, s'all. Maybe I'm not looking hard enough. That said, there are a few things that make me want to stick around. I guess time will tell. [Comments]

[29 Mar 2006|08:54pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | "My bowling ball is frozen in a footlocker in Chicago"-Tony Danza Tapdance Extravaganza ] " It was cute. " Yep, uh-huh. Thanks for the vaugeness. 4 comments| [Comments]

The Ad of the Century [28 Mar 2006|02:48pm] [ mood | complacent ] [ music | "The Bends"-Radiohead ] Watch Video Clip Saw that fucker at Regal Cinema when I scoped "The Hills Have Eyes" with Bross. Had to track it down, cause that's one hell of an ad. [Comments]

This fishbowl life is all they need... [26 Mar 2006|04:48pm] [ mood | nostalgic ] [ music | "Rescued"-Jack's Mannequin ] Recruit Greg Barney of Framingham is off to MCRD tonight. Talking to a kid who's got such short time left on what being a 'kid' should be is amazing. In 13 short weeks he's going to be changed into something far stronger, smarter, and sharper than most even understand. Anyone willing to make such a committment deserves a pat on the back. It's fucked up too because- as ridiculous as it sounds, it brings me back to the night of November 30th, 2003. Counting down the time by the seconds, looking out the window of the car as I was hitching a ride with my parents to PCS Milford, the New England winter starting it's seasonal chokehold and leaving skeletal trees in it's wake. Time felt so much more valuable then, because in truth, it was borrowed. Within 24 hours I would've traveled 1100 miles, but in reality I was going to a different dimension. Say goodbyes, Share a smoke with the SSgt., and begin. And Boot, even though I never finished...well, fuck...I left two years ago and still remember every Goddamned thing about that rock. So go get 'em, Greg. Dig in. We'll see ya in 13 Weeks. Chow to chow, bro. [Comments]

:Yawn: [10 Mar 2006|11:17pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | "Cutting Class"-Paint it Black ] If you don't think that's one of the cutest things ever, I feel sorry for you. And if you're in a bad mood, just come back here and check that little dude out. I want one now. That's on my list of things to purchase. [Comments]

Survey stolen from Lissa... [04 Mar 2006|12:13am] [ mood | bored ] [ music | "Fulfill the Dream"-Minus the Bear ] 1. If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone? 2. If a new medicine were developed that would cure arthritis but cause a fatal reaction in 1 percent of those who took it, would you want it to be released to the public? Well first off, I don't think arthritis is necessarily a valid illness to bargain a life against. But on that note, issue a fucking disclaimer. Anything that happens after that is their own damn fault. 3. If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the body or the mind of a 30-year-old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you want? If it were an outstanding body, I'd go with it hands down. I hate to be frank, but when it comes down to most things, the current generation doesn't really much care for the past opinions, simply due to the fact that they're generally completely unaware of what's really going on. Not saying they don't have good points or even incredible stories...they do. But they're coming from an entirely different era. So body, definitely. 4. If at birth you could select the profession your child would eventually pursue, would you do so? Nah. I'd let them do what they really wanted to do. That said, if they obviously displayed certain talents, I may make them aware of career paths that branch from said talents. 5. If you knew there would be a nuclear war in one week, whathat would you do? (you can't stop it) Call the USMC and have them issue me a Goddamned weapon. Probably wouldn't help much but I'd get a front row seat. And prior to heading to wherever it'd be going down, I'd spend quality time with my friends. 6. Would you accept twenty years of extrodinary happiness and fulfillment if it meant you had to die at the end of the period? Absolutely. Someone should be as lucky as to have a 20 year stretch of extraordinary happiness. 7. If the person you were engaged to marry had an accident and became a paraplegic, would you go through with the marriage or back out of it? Whoever would leave someone they loved because of a physical handicap is an asshole. Forget something about " 'Til Death do us Part," shitheads? 8. Someone very close to you is in pain, paralyzed, and will die in a month. They beg you to give them poison so they that they can die. Would you? What if it was your father? In pain and paralyzed? I'm confused here. If they really wanted to? Yeah. I would. Especially if it were family. 10. What is the worst psychological torture you can imagine suffering? (it cannot involve any physical harm to you) Failing those I care about, especially when the chips are down. Say if I life was on the line or whatnot. 11. You and a person you love deeply are placed in separate rooms with a button next to each of you. You know that you will both be killed unless one of you presses the button before 60 minutes pass; furthermore, the first to press the button will save the other person, but will immediately be killed. What do you think you would do?: I'd press the button within the first 30 seconds. 12. Would you be willing to go to a slaughter house and kill a cow? Do you eat meat?: I wouldn't enjoy it, but I'd do it. Certain things just need to get done. And yes I enjoy meat. 13. For $20,000 would you go for 3 months without washing, brushing your teeth, and using deodorant? Assume you could not explain your reasons to anyone, and there would be no long-term effect on your career. (you are not choosing one, you would have to go without all three) Homeless people do this shit for free. I'd just brush hardcore and do a flouride rinse before the festivities began. And there's no mention of listerine here. Washing? 3 Months would certainly suck but that's why we've got body spray. Once again for deodorizing purposes I revert to the body spray. 14. Which of these restrictions could you best tolerate: leaving the country permanently or never leaving the state in which you now live? II happen to like America, and Massachusetts. Not that I haven't given thought to leaving both at times...but I think not being able to return to the finest Country in the world would be a drag. 15. If you could choose the sex and physical appearance of your soon-to-be-born child, would you do it? No damn way, the anticipation has to be 98% of the fun with having a kid. I oughta apologize in advance to them though...cause I'm an ugly son of a bitch and they're pretty much doomed unless their mother is beautiful. And as it stands right now their mother is a hand. 16. Would you be willing to decrease your life expectancy by 5 years if you could become extremely attractive? Without a doubt. It sounds totally vain, but I'd rather look like what I want and enjoy the benefits. At least then I could die knowing I was leaving behind a good looking corpse. 17. If your friends and acquaintances were willing to bluntly tell you what they really think of you, would you want them to? They wouldn't be my friends if they hadn't already. And I'd definitely want them to, it's become an expectation. 18. Would it disturb you much if, upon your death, your body were simply thrown into the woods and left to rot? I think the location of my rotting body would be the last thing on my mind...CONSIDERING I'M DEAD. 19. Would you like to know the precise date of your death? Deadlines suck, everyone knows it. Why would you want one on your whole life? Pass. 20. Would you be willing to give up all television for the next 5 years if it would induce someone to provide for 1,000 starving children in Indonesia? No way. I don't even watch much TV but 1,000 starving kids in Indonesia is like 3 kids in any normal town. I think 1,000 kids are born every 15 seconds there. What they NEED to do over there is work on educational and social backgrounds. Stop having so many damn kids if you can't feed 'em, get an education, try to aim for something better. Their situation is tragic as hell no doubt, but saving 1,000 kids from starvation so that they can die of some fucking disease hardly seems like a worthy cause. And I'm missing Seinfield reruns. [Comments]

[02 Mar 2006|12:01am] [ mood | drained ] [ music | "I get nervous in cars" -Therefore I Am ] So yeah tonight was the first night lifting with Pauly. Felt fucking awesome to get a partner back in the gym...gave me some needed motivation and company. Back and Bis today, powered through it. Although I was a little let down, I think my bulk is going fairly well so far. Today I took in 4,250 Calories (give or take some) and approximately 260 grams of Protein. I'm using fitday to chronicle my bulking diet. So far it's pretty clean too...egg whites, tuna, cottage cheese, Gainer shakes, pasta, red meats, etc. I'm also starting a new split. I was doing a 4/3 split but it was too much rest, in my opinion. I'm aiming for a 5/2 at this point going something like this: Monday: Chest Barbell Flat Bench 3 sets , 8-10 Reps Incline Barbell Bench 3 sets, 8-10 Reps (Alternate with Decline Barbell) Flat Dumbell Flyes 3 sets, 8-10 Reps Cable Crossovers/Pec Decks 3 sets, 8-10 Reps Tuesday : Shoulders Seated Dumbell Presses 3 sets, 8-10 Reps Seated lateral raises (dumbell) 3 sets, 8-10 Reps Standing Front Raises 3 sets, 8-10 Reps Seated Arnold Press 3 Sets, 8-10 Reps Barbell Shrugs 3 Sets, 8-10 Reps Ocassional : Shoulder Supersets, Cuban Press Wednesday: Bicep/Tricep (I know it's strange to train synergistically, but I'm gonna give it a whirl) Triceps: Close-grip Bench 3 Sets, 8-10 Reps Skullcrushers (cambered bar) 3 Sets, 8-10 Reps Cable Pushdowns 3 Sets, 8-20 Reps Cable Pulldowns 3 sets, 8-20 Reps Biceps: Standing Barbell Curls 3 Sets, 8-10 Reps Standing Dumbell Curls (alternating) 3 Sets, 8-10 Reps Preacher Curls (cambered bar) 2-3 Sets, 8-10 Reps Thursday: Back Lat Pulldowns 3 Sets, 8-10 Reps Cable Low Rows 3 Sets, 8-10 Reps Dumbell Rows 3 Sets, 8-10 Reps Deadlifts 3 Sets, 8-10 Reps <===Every other workout Friday : Legs Leg Extensions 3 Sets, 8-10 Reps Squats 4 Sets, 8-10 Reps SLDLs 3 Sets, 8-10 Reps Prone Leg Curls 3 Sets, 8-10 Reps Leg Presses 3 Sets, 8-10 Reps Saturday : Off Sunday : Off Abs will be trained 3 out of the 5 days. Hanging Leg raises Bench Crunches Weighted Cable Crunches 3 Sets, 12-15 Reps of each Calves will be trained on Arms day. Standing Calf Raises 3 Sets 10-12 Reps Seated Calf Raises 3 Sets 10-12 Reps So that's pretty much it. Hopefully I'll stay the course with the nutrition and training. I'm even conisidering entering a Novice competition if it pays off. So hold the horses. And another thing on my mind : If anyone wants to jam sometime, I'm more than up to play drums or sing. I really really want to do something musically, so hit me up. 2 comments| [Comments]

[15 Feb 2006|10:02pm] [ mood | cynical ] [ music | "Before Aeons Came"-Behemoth ] Disgust. I'm bringing this thing back tentatively, both due to a serious case of internet boredom and the fact that all Brossi does is haze me about having a Livejournal. The way I choose to attack such hazing from my comrade is by reviving this archaic and rarely-updated journal with more of my bullshit feelings about life, people, and whatever else crosses my mind. Forgive me if it comes off as pretentious, it's nothing but the ramblings of an asshole. My life is far too boring to chronicle, at least in the typical journal sense...so we'll see where this heads. Anywho. On to the meat of the entry. 2006, how's it going? 2006 thusfar has been both a success and utter failure, but I suppose it really depends on the glass in front of you, so take it as you will. -On the good side of things I'm staying fairly busy, trying to balance the trifecta of school/work/lifting. As stated in a prior entry, weightlifting is still a constant in my life, and I'm trying to up the ante by way of a cleaner diet and a more focused goal. I'd like to say it's working, but that just wouldn't be in line with my cheery disposition now would it? -Things with the USMC may finally be taking shape, two years after my discharge. Every coin has it's tailside, however... -For the first time in a long time, I've found myself interested in a girl or two. Too bad they're either taken or not having anything to do with my interest. Line 'em up and I'll knock 'em down...I'm good for it. -Life, while seemingly back on track, still feels to me like it's lacking something...that elusive higher purpose. I'll keep my eyes open. There ya have it. 3 comments| [Comments]

"You'll never see the gardener or the white picket fences past the graves..." [14 Dec 2005|03:21pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | "Either They Decorated for Christmas Early..."-He is Legend ] It's strange to say I was motivated by a LED sign at a Gas Station, but the truth is often unromantic and bereft of drama. There it was, a massive LED behemoth that declared it's own spot on two large steel pillars. Almost impossible to see in the early morning sunlight, but just vibrant enough to speak it's piece, it cycled through gas prices, car listings, and promotions. The only redeeming part of it's repitoire came somwhere between all the drivel, and I'm sure it was lost on most of the weary Route 1 drivers, and in all honesty, had I been moving when I saw it, my eyes would've been lost on the automile. Alas, I was stuck at a red light, an hour late for school, and looking for anything that would take my mind off of the 7AM traffic. She couldn't have come at a better time. "It's never the wrong time to do the right thing." It took me a second to think about it. No, not because of the play on words...I'll attribute the memory-stutter to the fact that the near-nuclear brightness of the sunlight sent me skipping off the tracks. But when I returned to it, it held more clarity than the LEDs could ever muster. If we ever want to move from our confines...if we ever want to move at all, we'll need conviction. We'll need to differentiate between right and wrong, in a world where things can't be that absolute. We'll need to help each other and, in turn, help ourselves. And honestly? In retrospect? I've lacked that conviction. Short of a few things in my life, I've coasted. I've made poor decisions. And now I'm where I am, scrambling up the side of a near-vertical rock face. But if this sign told me anything, it was that regardless of how much time I've wasted, regardless of how many things I've botched up, it's not too late. I can still set goals. I can still take this mess and find something beautiful in it all. I can still turn this around. And maybe...just maybe...I can still find something that I think I've been missing. The sad part is it took thousands of LEDs for me to understand that. And I find it further ironic that such a meaningful message is carried on something so unsympathetic and unfeeling. But those are thoughts for another day. Here's to thinking forward. 5 comments| [Comments]

Holy shit End of Year Update! [28 Nov 2005|11:34am] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | "Memento Mori"-Embrace the End ] I haven't the smallest clue why I just decided to update this but I did. And even as I'm typing I'm losing interest in the update and may just cut it short. Since June: Back at school (ITT), it's pretty boring and I can't say I'm totally enjoying it at all but it's something I need to do to get someplace better. My (new) job pretty much sucks, it's not hard but I get the feeling no one is listening to me (what else is new), so I'm stuck in a position of service with no say in the matter. Blows. Training at Medway PD is going well. Although I've only been in a handful of times I'm honestly most excited about getting behind the radio and doing a good job at it. Hopefully I will. I'm still totally interested in re-enlisting in the USMC. That's definitely my first priority. As of to how that's going to happen I'm unsure, because the knee still has severe boundries, but between weightlifting and the recent introduction of cardio, I think we'll be in good hands. Weightlifting is practically the only thing I really enjoy at this period in time, but also the only thing I totally abhor. I'm sick of the plateaus and I'm sick of lack of results. But I'll keep trucking along because doing it is better than not doing it. Drumming (brace for correction) is probably the second thing I enjoy, but the same situation as weightlifting applies. Need to nail technical skill with double bass work and rudiments, and then maybe I'll be happy. I've kind of taken interest in a female, but I doubt she even knows and if she does she's most likely in a different state of mind entirely. But I figured I'd post it here. Followed Joshs' advice, picked up WoW, have a level 42 Human Warrior on Draenor. Pissed because I should be a 60 but my computer is currently a carcass in the corner of my room due to the motherboard bursting into flame. (currently on the laptop.) Selling the Audi, and purchased an absolute beater so as to save money. From Audi--->1994 Ford Escort. Depressing...but perhaps this will help me pay off debt and afford other things (i.e. Drum equipment.) Looking to train in any of the following (and all if my schedule allows): Muay Thai, Jujitsu, Krav Maga, and Kali. If anyone is interested in partnering up or searching for a school, by all means, hit me up. I'm also looking into returning to UMD or at least to a university level school come Fall '06. I should be considered a Sophomore by then, what with the classes I'm currently taking, but I really don't know about credit transfer. 'Tis the season to be jolly. In other words, I'm currently figuring out what to purchase people for Christmas. Unfortunately, I'm poor...therefore the gifts may be on the tacky side this year. You've been warned, but don't think I'll shirk on the Holiday cheer. It is my favorite season, after all. On subject of the season, I'm pissed that I'm almost 22 with jack shit to show for it. Every task I've attempted since High School has (in some way, shape, or form) crashed and burned. Maybe I'm made for failure. Or pulling through. Haven't decided which yet. We'll see in the months to come. Last note, I gotta get out on skates. I haven't touched ice since I destroyed my knee and would dig playing some Hockey. Get back to me if you're interested. That's about it...if I remember anything else (which I'm sure I will) I may just post it. Or not, considering I don't believe anyone reads this anymore, and my updates the past 2 years have been so atrocious that to start again continually would be out of character. Happy Holidays, Peace in the World, and all that other bullshit; -M 1 comment| [Comments]

It's been a while but I'm thinking so here we are... [18 Jun 2005|02:51am] [ mood | Full of horseshit ] [ music | "Blackwater Park"-Opeth ] Howdy there. If there are any of you who still read this, waiting with baited breath for an update, I suppose I've satisfied from the get go. But, then again, I've learned over time that aiming to satisfy people will end with more futility than it begins with. So what's going on with me? Wish I had news. Life back in '03 was on the up and up, and since then it's come to a screeching halt. I emerged from the wreck fairly unscathed, but have pretty much lingered around the scene of the accident. With thought on moving forward, developments lately have revolved around continuing my education (read:starting it in the first place). Not quite sure with what or how so, but bridges are crossed once under your feet, eh? As stated in the subject line, I've spent the past two hours (Since returning from the killer [i]Batman Begins[/i])pondering. If you were to ask me exactly about what, I'd probably stare at you with a dumbass expression on my face, because I'd have the foggiest. But it's certainly about a lot of things. For instance, things I both love and, at the same time, abhor. -Memories -Summer Nights. Love 'em for the hope they have a tendency to rekindle, but hate them for the afformentioned Memories and also for the fleeting nature of them all. -Love itself. Although in retrospect I'd say I've never felt it, I'd probably be lying. And hate myself for it in the process. -Trust. The ultimate high. The ultimate weakness. -Dry Conversation. Saves me from wasting time talking to assholes, but certainly is a chore to weave through. -Liars. I'm talking the shit-eating grin types. I love you cause you give me something to aspire NOT to be. Don't think I wouldn't hesitate to put a bullet through your worthless skulls, however. -Failure. Falling down allows us to get back up, which is all well and good, but how much can one fall down before getting up is an impossibility? -Talking to people who have their shit straight. I love it because it makes me realize that maybe there IS something worth working for, that maybe there are happy people out there. But then I realize I'm not one of them and abhorrance takes over. -How someone can look at you with such truth that you can feel it coming out of their eyes, and on the other side of the coin, how it comes to play that the truth you thought you felt was just a bunch of bullshit. -The new Backstreet Boys single. Just a few examples. My mind is going at a million miles a minute as it usually does. I really couldn't tell any of you why I updated, I think it was just for a perverse return. Doubtful that it will be a very well managed one. On that note I think I'll hit the rack, keep the dreams alive. P.S.-Steph, since no doubt you'll be one of...maybe 3 people that read this, hugs go out to you. 13 comments| [Comments]

[18 Feb 2005|01:15pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | "In Reference to a Sinking Ship"-Norma Jean ] LAYER ONE: All About You Name: Matt Birth date: 12-13-83 Birthplace: Boston, MA Current Location: Hell Eye Color: Blue/Gray/Green (changes) Hair Color: Brown Righty or Lefty: Righty Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius LAYER TWO: On the inside Your heritage: Irish/Italian/German Shoes you wore today: Nike Redfoots Your weakness: Life Your fears:Social Situations, Being Alone, Failure, the list goes on... Your perfect pizza: Polomatch from Bertuccis LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow Your most overused phrase: Fuck this shit Your thoughts first waking up: Another day? Your best feature: physical -Jack shit personality - Jack shit Your bedtime: Work days-9-11pm, Non Work Days-9PM-3AM Your most missed memory: Being Worry Free with my buddies, Riding bikes around the 'hood LAYER FOUR: Your Pick Pepsi or Coke: No Soda McDonald's or Burger King: No fast food Single or group dates: Fuck Dating, ends up as shit anywho Adidas or Nike: Working out? Nike. Casual? Adidas Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Arizona Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee LAYER FIVE: Do You? Smoke Pot: no Cuss: Fucking a right...I'd like to thank the Marine Corps for a lot of it. Sing: Primarily alone, my voice sucks Take a shower everyday: Usually. One or Two. Have a crush(es): Not anymore Think you've been in love: Absolutely, but like most things it died. Like(d) high school: Knowing exactly what to do and the lack of serious worry was great, but you realize how fake and fickle everyone is once you leave, so both yes and no. Believe in yourself: Not in the least. Get motion sickness: Not really. Think you're attractive: Not at all. Think you're a health freak: No, my horrid physique is evidence of that. Get along with your parents:I don't really get along with anyone anymore. Like thunderstorms: Absolutely, love them. Play an instrument: Drums, Piano/Keys, Vocals (not good at any of them) LAYER SIX: In the past month have you... Drank alcohol: No Smoked: No Done a drug: No, unless you count Creatine Made Out: No Done more? No Gone on a date: No Gone to the mall?: Yes, with Bross Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Who the fuck...? Eaten sushi: Unfortunately No, Yummmmm Sushi Been on stage: No but I did an impromtu Michael Jackson impersonation on top of a pallet stack at work, does that count? Been dumped: No, I don't qualify Gone skating: No but I should I miss the ice. Gone skinny dipping: I wouldn't put anyone through the misery Dyed your hair: No, back to natural color for a while. Stolen anything: No LAYER SEVEN: Ever... Played a game that required removal of clothing: No, and if I did I can't remember. Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: More than I'd like to admit Been caught "doing something": No, I'm fairly stealthy Been called a tease: No I'm usually the one who gets jerked around, not the one who does the jerking. Shoplifted: Yep LAYER EIGHT: Getting Older Age you hope to be married: Whenever it happens it happens, although I sincerely doubt it will Numbers and Names of Children: Number? Who knows. Names of interest: Boys-Dryden, Dallas, Ash, Gray, Kiefer Girls-Elora, Aeris, Cadence (don't worry Kate I wont take it) Describe your ideal wedding: Lots of good friends good tunes How do you want to die: Preferably, in Combat (with the US Marines), but I don't want to die in a boring fashion. Either way bring it on, I'm waiting. What do you want to be when you grow up: I'm grown up, and I want to be a US Marine, but there are other points of interest such as Police Officer, Something involving Computers, Hitman, Rockstar. What country would you most like to visit: Ireland seems interesting LAYER NINE: In The Numbers... Number of drugs taken illegally: 1? Number of people I could trust with my life:They know who they are Number of CDs that I own: Quite a few but the number has dropped due to accidents. Number of piercings: None Number of tattoos: none Number of times my name has appeared in the Newspaper?: not sure, I'm pretty much a loser so not much Number of scars on my body: A few, most notably on my right knee (9 I think on the knee) Number of things in my past that I regret: I'd say 75% of it 1 comment| [Comments]

[29 Dec 2004|09:10pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | Alexisonfire ] THREE NAMES YOU GO BY: 1. Matt 2. Sully 3. Gringo THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD: 1. Bigsully37 2. Trlrpkjsus 3. DthbeforeDshnr THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. N/A 2. N/A 3. N/A THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. Physique 2. Face 3. Right Knee THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE: 1. Irish 2. Italian 3. German THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU: 1. Losing those I love 2. Social Situations (Crowds) 3. Loss of privacy THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: 1. Air 2. Car 3. Shower THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW: 1. OD Skivvie Shirt 2. Nike PT Shorts 3. Knee Brace THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS: 1. Botch 2. BTBAM 3. Many Many More THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT: 1. "Boyfriend Notes"-Silent Drive 2. "Mordecai"-Between the Buried and Me 3. "Banana Phone"-Raffi THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS 1. Skydive 2. Sportbike 3. Re-enlist THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given): 1. comfort 2. security 3. loyalty TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE 1. I Killed JFK 2. I despise life 3. You're a good person THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU: 1. Personality 2. Comfortableness 3. Smile THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO: 1. be happy 2. feel worth 3. block compassion THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: 1. Drumming 2. Writing 3. Singing THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW: 1. Sleep 2. Work Out 3. Re-enlist THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: 1. US Marine 2. Computers (Programming?) 3. Hitman THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION: 1. No 2. Such 3. Thing THREE KID'S NAMES: 1. Dryden 2. Ash 3. Elora THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: 1. Earn the EGA 2. Get into shape 3. Get a blumpkin THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR HAVE A PAINFUL HANGNAIL: 1. Ghandi 2. Princess Di 3. You 4 comments| [Comments]

[25 Dec 2004|07:01pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | "More of Myself to Kill"-BTBAM ] Christmas changes nothing. 1 comment| [Comments]

[16 Dec 2004|05:36pm] [ mood | cynical ] [ music | "American Classic"-Silent Drive ] I realized there are two huge dynamics in human nature today at work...the thoughts: Builders: The Builders are those members of society who can take things and nurture them into something better. They're generally friendly, personable, and outgoing. These traits are due to the fact that they've had rare negative occasions with relationships and social situations. The builders are completely adaptable, and will gain the upper hand through luck, compassion, and rationale. Destroyers: Destroyers can not and will never catch a break. The Modus Operandi of a Destroyer is destruction in it's purest form. Destroyers can take something beautiful and tarnish it until an unrecognizeable point. They can tear down, but will continually fail to build up. It would seem that most that fall into this category don't willingly destroy things but rather can do nothing as their lives turn to shit. They, opposite of the Builders, continually fail due to apathy, depression, and severe introverted nature--brought on because of overwhelming odds of failure. [Comments]

[24 Nov 2004|01:50pm] [ mood | relieved ] [ music | "Ghost of Past Failure"-Shadows Fall ] Killer News: Re-enlistment is indeed possible. Although my Doctor had initially thought otherwise, my knee is doing better and now it's a matter of strengthening it and getting it into shape. I'm willing to do whatever it takes. 2 comments| [Comments]

[20 Nov 2004|12:45pm] [ mood | quixotic ] [ music | xUntiltheEndx ] You know what I love? I love running into someone who is such a fucking liar they act like your friend when they clearly are not. It's comical to see how they dodge and weave through 'friendly conversation.' It's not that hard to see through the facade and they're not fooling anyone. So force your way through your 'hellos' and 'how are yas?' I hope you fucking choke. Although I suppose I'll thank people such as that for the laughs. 2 comments| [Comments]

[17 Nov 2004|06:24pm] [ mood | sore ] [ music | "A Threnody For Modern Romance"-IDT ] ( More Boredom ) 3 comments| [Comments]

[08 Nov 2004|07:42pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | "Wash Away Tears"-The Pillowcase Massacre ] ( Boredom. ) 1 comment| [Comments]

[03 Nov 2004|05:26pm] [ mood | UNITE! ] [ music | "Making Friends and Acquaintances"-Cursive ] Consider this a Public Service Announcement: Listen, as we all know, George W. Bush  was re-elected President of the United States today at approximately 11:00 AM. This naturally has caused waves of friction between those in the Kerry camp and the Bush camp. I myself am a registered Republican, so I'm sure you know who I voted for. Here's the meat of this PSA- If you've taken more than 15 minutes out of your day to be pissed at what happened you've gotta re-evaluate yourself. I'm not saying that because 'my guy' won. I'm saying it because we're the United States of America and the key word in said phrase is United. Yes, I voted for Bush. But had Kerry won, oh well, move on. The decisions WE MAKE as people are what Govern our everyday life. So to make it short and sweet, I sympathize with you Democrats but we've gotta work together if we want to get anywhere. For the Conservatives that read this, congrats... For the Liberals, make the best of these next 4. [Comments]

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